Tuesday, 29 April 2014

This is it

I'm done with it.
Its time to cut off all those food that will make me fat
No cheese, no sweet drinks, no chocolate top, no ice cream, no junk food, no fast food.

I wanted to start exercise, maybe go for jogging but don't know how to start.
okay lo, now I got some hints from my dagege

That massage master tell me,
no sleep late, no hot bath and must exercise.
Sleep early and wake up early, good for study and my body.
Sounds great, just wanted to have a try.

My whole back bone hurt and its like "tied" together, the way Chinese describe it.
Massage my back bone and legs, it costs me rm30 O.O
I wonder how much I have paid for my weak body? :x

I want lose FAT!!!!!

Monday, 28 April 2014

Semester break

One month of holiday, without freedom, mum will just stop me from going out.
This month gonna be bored, and the thing I hate the most is I can't see him

After semester break, I'm gonna back to Kampar alone, he'll be staying at penang,
I just can't imagine the life after semester break,
 imagine no one gonna sing goodnight songs for me.
No one bringing me for supper (keep  fit)
No one hug me when I sleep, no one wipe my tears when I cry.
No one for me to cubit, no hug nothing.
No one will watch movie with me,
No one will teach me
No one will take care of me when I'm sick
No one will stand by my side when I got bullied by others.

I'll be missing him all the time.

Friday, 18 April 2014


Finals is just around the corner, 2 days left. 
It should be the end of my foundation life if I didn't failed.
Father God, you know my pains
I was sick, I was hurt, I was weak

I've screamed, cried and even tortured myself, I can't face everything that happened around me,
I'd treated people with my true heart but in return, they're liar that only treat me well when they needed me.
Negative stuff happens again and again and it really hit me.

I was once to suicide because of my result, but because of your word I didn't
I think of you my God and the people around me.
I know You will show me the way when there's seems to be no way.

Thank you for the great mother,
kind and wonderful mum I have.
May the God bless her. Stay healthy and happy forever.

Thank you for the hard working brother,
non-stop support me although I've failed him several times.
Working at a foreign country is really hard,
God please keep him safe and healthy.
Thank you for the partner,
no matter hard time or happy time, he accompany me all the way, never leave.
When  there's no one with me, he's the one. 

It's really hard for me to pick up everything all over again.
It's really hard for me to admit that I've failed my semester two.
Its all face problems. 
Now, I faced my own failure, ya I did failed my semester two but it doesn't mean I fail my life, right?

I admit I've absent from church for a long long time, I just don't know how to start with it again.
I don't dare to face God, as I have did so many wrong things since I came here.
I've changed, a lot. To protect myself.
I've once lost hope, but thanks to the brothers and sister from my penang church, my pastors too.
They really concern about me, always update me about church's activities.
Encouragement, greets and prayers from them really warm my heart.
Thank you so much, God bless you all.

Your words inspired me, I feel that I'm alive once again.
Thank you God. Happy Easter to my christian fellow.
Thank you for the cross, thank you for the love
Stay positive. Stay tuned for the new me :)

Friday, 11 April 2014

Tuesday, 1 April 2014


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